Tuesday, July 31, 2007

10 Signs That It Is Going To Be A Bad Day

1. You wake up seven minutes before your alarm is supposed to go off.

2. You run out of conditioner in the midst of putting it on, and are only able to condition about half of your hair.

3. The shirt you wanted to wear is dirty.

4. Your computer is r e a l l y s l o w . Uh-oh. Viruses?

5. Your hair dryer shuts off and will not start again, and your hair is in that weird not-wet, but not-dry stage.

6. Something spilled in the fridge. Something very sticky.

7. Guess what? It's raining. Now your under-conditioned, not-wet but not-dry hair is all frizzy.

8. Everyone on the freeway forgets how to drive. Of course.

9. As soon as you turn on your work computer, it reminds you that you have a two hour meeting this afternoon.

10. It takes you a full fifteen minutes to find some fucking coffee that is not left over from yesterday.

Friday, July 20, 2007

Warm Fuzzies

I don't have a lot of family that I'm close to. In fact, I don't really have all that many people that I'm close to. But this past weekend was spent with members of my family that I never thought I would be able to spend time with all together. Especially not having things go as well as they did. Amazing, right? Your eyes do not deceive you. That is Mama, Dad, Dennis, and Brian all sitting together. All laughing together. I love this picture more than words can express.

Wednesday, July 18, 2007


I love Arizona. It is a place of opposites and extremes. The only comfortable middle ground to be found is artificial. In its natural state, Arizona gives no quarter. In winter, the days are freezing and the nights even colder. In the summer the heat will scorch your throat until you breathe in gasps and year round the air will leech the moisture out of you until you feel that you will be thirsty for the rest of your life. At the peak of the heat of summer, another extreme will confront you. Just when you feel as though you are about to pass out from heat exhaustion, a drop of water lands on your nose. Startled, you pause. Another drop hits your forehead. For a few seconds, you are afraid that you've begun to hallucinate. A bright flash of light draws your eyes upward. As your disbelieving eyes take in a ceiling of roiling black clouds, a booming peal of thunder echos across the sky and the clouds open up in earnest. Within minutes, you are soaked through and running for cover, as lightning flashes all around and thunder cracks like some demon coachman, driving you on. Half an hour later, the sky is startlingly blue and the air around you is steaming. The edge of the mountains seems to slice into the sky like a knife. This image is helped along by the red-stained earth freshly saturated with rain, looking a little too much like blood for comfort.

Wednesday, July 11, 2007


Just one more reason to boycott Wal-Mart.

Tuesday, July 10, 2007

The Trouble With Love Is

I've been thinking about past relationships a lot lately, and I've come to the conclusion that I have a bad habit of dating guys that either a) have little to no future or b) are assholes. Sometimes they were a combination of both, like a sliding scale (but not like a Lazy Susan, Shawn). Now the asshole thing would be somewhat understandable, if I were talking about guys that are assholes in that "bad boy" sort of way, where they secretly have a heart of gold and all they need is the tender love of the right girl to reform them. Unfortunately, that is not the case. I am referring to the more sinister type of asshole-ness, the type that sneaks up on you. These guys seem normal when you first meet them, and for a while after they remain in that normal category. However, slowly, very slowly, you begin to witness jerk-type behavior. And you make excuses, "Oh, he's just cranky" or "He's stressed out" and the like. After a while though, it becomes undeniable that this guy is a full-fledged asshole. At which point, you shake your head and sigh at wasting so much time, and you move on. Hopefully.

Much more prevalent in my life have been guys that have little to no future. This trend is more disturbing as well, and the reason is two-fold. One, it preys on my nurturing side. I know that I try to come off as a cold-hearted bitch, but the reality is that if I truly care about someone, I'm very generous with them. Two, aside from being a general asshole, my father was great at not having a future. Sure, he's got his shit together now, and he has a nice business out in Texas, but when I was a kid, it was one job after another after another. Not to mention being in and out of rehab. Not that I think that he's lazy, in fact just the opposite. The man can't stop doing things. Even on his days off, he would constantly tinker in the garage on a variety of projects. The problem was that none of his ideas and projects spanned beyond the moment of conception. Sure, it might take a few months to follow through and complete whatever he was working on, but it was only to be able to say that he had accomplished whatever it was. There was never any thought to the bigger picture, no plans or projects with real staying power, nothing that would improve his mode of living above its current state.

This worries me, since I seem to have an affinity for guys with the same type of mentality, a sort of lack of ability to act toward to future. I have been getting better about this. I've gone from dating a guy living in a tent in a trailer park (no joke) to a really great guy who just doesn't have the level of motivation that I'm looking for. But this trend really makes me wonder if I will always choose guys that need some sort of care-taking. Would I recognize a guy who could share the care-taking burden equally?

Friday, July 6, 2007

I Told You I Have a Bad Memory

Mama sent me the Real Deal:

"Hi there= I enjoyed your blog stories but wanted to clarify that you were only a baby when you ate the snail- maybe 8 or 9 months old. We were still living in midway city in the house you were born in and I was watering the front yard while you were supposed to be sitting on your blanket on the other side of the walkway. You crept up the front steps to the small front porch where you picked up a snail and looked at it. I felt it was safe to look away for a minute and when I looked back at you there was brwon goo and bubbles comming out of your mouth and you were holding the other part of the snail in you hand. I screamed and you just stared at me like I was the crazy one and proceeded to put the rest of the snail in your mouth at which point I grabed you and got as much of it out as I could. From that point on I always made you put your "Nuk" in your mouth while outside and for some reason you'd keep that in your mouth. If you didn't have that in (like a plug) than everything went in your mouth- pebbles, sticks, bugs - anything you picked up. The lady who lived behind us used to go out with her little boy who was about your age and gave me a bad time about your plug so I told her to keep an eye on you and see why I did it. After half an hour of removing everything you picked up from your mouth she got up and said ok, gimme that damm plug!! So now you have the real deal story... your loving mom"

Tuesday, July 3, 2007

Story Time

I was relaying some stories to Tyler a few days ago, and he was either so entertained or so horrified by them that he felt compelled to write them on his white board that everyone who walks by can see. So for the rest of that week, whenever anyone walked by his cube, they saw this:

Each of these topics is a real story; one that happened to me no less. But the topics, as you can see, are fully cracked out. Tyler had to spend the rest of the day explaining that these were things I had told him about. Then some people left me nice little notes, like to not do drugs (only one of those stories was drug related! And it was a prescription! That was mine! Can you guess which one?). Most people just shook their heads and wondered, but never actually asked me about them. Perhaps they were afraid of learning more...
The stories, while funny, are actually not as disturbing as they sound. For instance, "feet fall off (the bottoms of them)". That happened sometime in junior high. Possibly freshman yeah of high school. I don't have a very good sense of time. Let's back up a second. When I was younger, I went barefoot all the time. If I didn't absolutely have to wear shoes, I didn't. Over the years, my feet had developed some amazing calluses on the bottoms. I could stick a thumb tack all the way into the bottom of my heel. Anyway, whenever it was, I had worn a new pair of shoes to school that day. It must have been junior high, because I remember that it was July or August, and my high school wasn't year-round but my junior high was. Yeah, school in the summer, that was fun. Back to the story. The shoes were adorable brown patent leather lace-up loafers with clunky heels sort of like these ones, but with a lower, clunkier heel. Well, as I was walking home from the bus stop, a mile from my house, these new shoes that I had, of course, not worn socks with, began to rub on the backs of my heels, right on my Achilles' Tendons, and they were starting to cut into my feet. Not wanting to bleed all over my cute shoes, I did what any sensible person would do. I took them off, intending to walk home barefoot. Did I mention that it was July or August? The town I grew up in easily gets as hot as 120 degrees in those months. And I was walking on black asphalt. Barefoot. At first I thought I could just run from shade-patch to shade-patch, but very quickly I realized that my feet were on fire. As I gazed at the stretch of shade-less asphalt ahead of me, I realized that I had made a dire mistake. So I put those torturous shoes back on my burnt, bloody feet and hobbled the longest mile home of my life.
For the next two days, my feet were very tender, but on the third day I noticed a strange sensation. I couldn't feel the ground. I could feel the pressure of the ground, but not the texture of it. Upon closer inspection, I saw that the bottoms of my feet had blistered. The entire bottoms. Two giant, feet-shaped blisters. I couldn't feel the ground because I was literally walking on two pockets of air. Eventually, in the way of blisters, they popped. And the thick calluses on the bottoms of my feet came off in mostly one continuous swath from each foot.

The next line, "Swollen potato bugs", isn't so much a story of one event, but more the story of one of the most disgusting things we had to deal with living in the town I grew up in. First of all, for those of you who don't know what a potato bug is:

Horrifying little fucks, aren't they? I think that they are also called Jericho Crickets. They look like some freak cross-mutation between and ant, a locust, and a bee. Thankfully, they don't really move fast or fly. But what they do do (hee hee) is fall into your pool. And swell up. To about twice the size they are normally, which is not small to begin with. You think scooping bees out of the pool is bad? Try to scoop out five of these fuckers when they're all puffy and kind of falling apart and nothing will ever gross you out again. Shudder.

Moving on. "Avocado tree growing out of head". If you guessed that this was the drug-related on, you were right! Go you. Not that it was hard. The important thing to know for this story is that I have hay fever, which basically means that I am allergic to air. Dust and pollen make my eyes itch and my nose run. My nose running makes my throat itch, and then I start coughing. And I don't stop coughing. Then I get bronchitis, and a few times pneumonia even. So my doctor would prescribe me codeine, which is a pain reliever that is also known to prevent coughing. One of the more rare side effects of codeine is hallucination. I should also tell you that I was taking prescription-strength codeine. Well, one evening I forgot that I has already taken one dose, and so I took another. I had a hallucination that there was an avocado pit inside of my brain that had taken root and was sprouting out of the back of my skull. I wasn't panicked by this, thankfully. The strangest part was that I could see the back of my head. As the sprout grew, my skull kind of opened up in a large jagged hole in the back, the edges of which were curling and shriveled looking. If I could draw, I could draw a picture of it to this day, my mental picture is so clear. I could even see the avocado pit nestled down in my own brain. I hallucinated myself some surgery and I was fine.

The next story, "Cats jumping on her throat from above," is about the time that Singe almost killed me. So really is should be "cat", singular. In the apartment that I lived in last summer, my bed was underneath a window. One of Singe's favorite things to do was to look out the window and fantasize about murdering the seagulls that raided the dumpsters out back. Her second favorite thing to do was to spend the entire night jumping up onto the window sill, and jump back down about five minutes later, usually right next to my head. One night, as I was dreaming away, Singe miscalculated and instead of jumping down next to my head, she jumped down onto my throat. From about three feet above. Her full weight of fifteen pounds landed on her two front paws directly on my throat when I was dead asleep. If she had snagged my jugular, she very well could have killed me. It was an unpleasant way to be woken up, to say the least.

This is where things start to get harder. "Eating garden snails" is a story that I have only heard told to me, since I was too young when it happened to remember myself. As I've already told you, I was a rather adventurous child. I was prone to wandering off by myself and getting into...predicaments, shall we say? Well, in this particular instance, I had wandered out into the front yard on a warm spring day and was entertaining myself. I was around four, maybe five. Mama came out to check on me and, much to her horror, she came out just in time to see me pick up a snail and take a bite out of it. I still don't know what could have possessed me to see a snail as appetizing, but I do see shades of this behavior in my adult life. To this day, I will try any food item at least once. I've found some great food that way. Ironically though, I've never eaten escargot.

"Chipping tooth on dog's head" sounds like a story that involves a lot of blood and pain, but I can assure you that there was no blood and minimal pain. I was over at Aunt Ann's house playing with my cousins in the backyard. They had a huge Golden Retriever that was none too bright, but he meant well. Years later when I read "Of Mice and Men", I would think of this dog. I was playing tug-o'-war with him, and I pulled the rope toy out of his mouth and raised my arm triumphantly above my head. Which is when the dog lurched upwards, still trying to win the game, even though it was clearly over. His lunge brought the top of his head into direct and violent contact with the underside of my chin. As my jaw slammed shut, my teeth stuck together with such force that a sliver of my tooth went flying out of my mouth. Somehow, that was the only injury I sustained from the dog's collision course. What a sore loser...